I love Morgan so much – and I miss her so much, and no, I will never get over it. I actually started to cry because I realized from the sparkle in her eyes that she truly believed at that time that her dad would build another ranch. She knew I wanted so much to build another ranch and she said with this present I would already have the first thing to attach to the outside of the “future” ranch house. Morgan knew I missed the ranch her dad had built where she had been born in Old Snowmass, CO. It was a copy of one of the old bells that moms would ring in order to “call” their family to the house for dinner. It was meant to be mounted on the side of the house, by the front door. It was a black metal bell with a figure of a horse on the top. Then I opened the present…I couldn’t believe it. I opened the card – it was from both of them. They came out with little sheepish grins on their faces and gave me a present. Then after we all had cake Rainer & Morgan went in her room to get something. When we arrived home Morgan brought out a birthday cake she had gotten for me, put the candles on and lit them – they all sang happy birthday. It was a great dinner and we all had fun talking and joking about things. Steve said we were all going out to dinner. Then in the late afternoon Morgan came home with Rainer.
Steve & Morgan had both asked me what I wanted to do, but I could not really think of anything. JI woke up and couldn’t think of anything that I’d like to do to celebrate my birthday. It was a really good memory, but also so very painful for me only because I know I will never have another holiday or birthday with Morgan. All I could think of was the last birthday that I celebrated with Morgan. For the days leading up to it my heart was hurting more and more. Yesterday was a day I was not looking forward to – it was my birthday.
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